Magnum

I'm waiting for something
To put these foolish things to right

Protected accepted
I need it now I need it right

I'm feeling so empty
In this old lonely world's tonight

I'm restless defenseless
In this unholy world tonight

For love we burn
We never learn
We'll never learn 

O lonely night

Disappear

O lonely night
Don't you come around here

"Matthew Lyons Illustration" by inksurge

"Matthew Lyons Illustration" by inksurge

bzzt

Showreel from Nurul Ibrahim on Vimeo.

leading a double life

foto: Anne Lebowitz

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Dear Nurul Ibrahim, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Yourself: You are really hiding your true self.
Girlfriend/boyfriend: You like serious, smart and determined people.
Relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well.
Love: Your have very sensible tactics.
Education: Education is very important in life.
Job: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job.
Success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go.
Afraid: You are concerned about your image.

if we are all formed by information of others, location, physical and mental experiences in the past
than what are we?

I could be blob in the sky
I could be a bubble gum
if someone/something hadn't make me believe i wasn't
what if we are all a phantom of substance?

I wonder if i wake up tommorow and be able to explain who I am free from my understanding of my past and background.

One sided monologue days

A: So what do you do on a regular friday night?
B: Howl at the moon.

Max and Mary is a beautiful tale of friendship about two people from two different countries who found solace with each other as pen-pals. Sounds typical? They fall in love? I myself am shocked to learn, No. This is far from typical. This story unfolds the journey of true friendship, even as physically distant as they were.

Both are united by their utter confusion with the world. Mary is a young Australian girl living with an unorthodox drunk of a mother and a father whom makes a lifetime career in a factory as the person attaching strings on tea bags. She is a curious, brightminded girl whose confidence is shaken by both her mother's nasty upbringing and ill mannered boys making fun of her looks. One day she decides to send a letter to a random person on the other side of the world, to learn where babies come from. That random letter and question was received by Max, a Jewish New Yorker, who is overweight, and has fear of being in contact with people. Following this the years and contentment in both of their lives were flourished by their friendship, love of chocolates and The Noblets.

Watching the trailer you might think its a comedy, and although it is wrapped by the hilarious thoughts they share, the circumstances Mary had to face growing up are the most unthinkable horrid events one could not even think of surviving. In short their love for life was saved by their friendship..

This story is deeply moving. It also contains profound words that make me started to reflect on my friendships and the people that have always looked over me in my darkest, most unbearable hours. It made me ask myself who my real friends are? What they see me as? Or who are those that have accepted me entirely as an individual? And whether I've ever shown them enough affection and gratitude for this?

I'm always baffled at how a correspondence no matter how short, or whether it takes the form as an online chat or an email, can have a great impact and change everything. It made me sentimental to think how physically apart they all are, and how different the paths we are leading. Regardless how different the culture, the time, the distance, yet they ALWAYS manage to have time be understanding. Sometimes I feel like I have to work on being better at corresponding to them, and not fixate on my crazy little world.

To have someone to listen and reassure you just when you feel you want to jump from the edge of the abyss is an incredible treasure. I cherish everyone who cares in my life. Because I think the most honest facet of a person is when we are young and when we are at our worst. I hope I'll never take any of it for granted!! :))

2010

I'm hoping to see great changes this year. And I feel that I am this close to get there. Good and bad things had happened marking the start of this new year, not just to me but to my sisters. Yet all of them happened trully as a pivotal sign of growth, mentally and professionally. Leaving the past and embracing the new. I just hope all of us have the strength to be understanding with each other. I am afraid to jinx the good thing happening by writing here, but can one ever hope too much? If you are reading this blog, God, I have the same and only request as the lion visiting the wizard oz; I need all the courage in the world!!

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graphic designer/filmmaker

Stereotyping People by Their Favorite Indie Bands by Stelios Philip

Death Cab for Cutie
Girls who quote lyrics as their Facebook status.

Neon Indian
Gorilla Vs. Bear readers.

She & Him
People who hate Ben Gibbard.

Bon Iver
People with self-esteem issues and probably hate Ben Gibbard.

Washed Out
Those who comfortably accept chillwave as a genre.

Memory Tapes
Those who comfortably accept chillwave as a lifestyle.

The Shins
Premature alts who considered Garden State a life-altering viewing experience.

Radiohead
Everyone.

READ

My Hero

You read my mind

the alchemist is my new bible

It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life so interesting.

The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never to forget the drops of oil on the spoon.

When you know the universal language, it’s easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you. And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one’s dreams would have no meaning ~ Maktub

Blup blup

Hello Fest! (made by Hello Motion) Is an Indonesian Motion Picture Arts Festival that celebrates all the young, crazy and talented film makers & animators throughout the country. Most of the films were independently made on small budget, but whether it was animated or shot on video cam, all the stories selected were purely crazy & creative.

The festival also had a costume competition, haha, most of the people that joined were obviously addicted to manga (japanese comic) and japanese culture. But it was very impressive to see the amount of work these people took to make their costumes. We saw an Indonesian or Javanese version of Transformers, which took the form of a yellow Gatot Kaca with a keris. And it baffled me to understand how on earth this kid made it!

My short film All in your Head made it into the festival. Sadly though, my short film didn't make the cut as finalists T_T the selected finalists for the competition wins an imac (cries*) and an award (Kuldesak Award) handed personally by Mira Lesmana, who is a famous film producer here (resposible for serious, nationalist films like Gie, Laskar Pelangi even Ada Apa dengan Cinta). But it was still worth to attend. I understood many possible reasons I didn't get in, as the movies featured were not only funny, but the type of humor that is very relatable with our culture. Most of all I believe it was makhtub. Haha. The finalists had to stand up in front of the whole audience for a Q & A session, which in no way would I be prepared for. It was a good learning experience. Things like this really motivate me to find a way to a be better story teller. I have also sent the movie to other major countries with that hopefully are more open. It's a very thrilling process to learn how people react to your ideas. And I'm looking forward for whatever the result is :))

"I want to look back at my life and say,

" HOLY SHIT! That was one hell of a ride!!""

- (quote unknown). found it on a friends FB :))

Erm...didn't know amubas exist in the industry

on film competitions

work it, work it

I'm trying to get back to the fit me, the healthy shiney me I know exists, deep down inside. I've learned from peoples random comments that perhaps I gain weight fast, and lose it fast depending on my state of mind (weight gain = stress & no sleep, weight loss = er..stress & no eat). How ever, the older I've got the less I care about what people think about my body image...it's true. Untill I look in the mirror! Hahaha..
The other day a friend at school actually pinched my stomach while I was directing. Which was weird. But from myself, I do feel unwell, and I don't feel I've been having an healthy diet.

I've been losing weight lately but from being ill, which isn't a good thing. My sis and I started a food journal to review what we consume everyday. Haha.. I have no idea how long we will keep this up for. What we are aiming for this way, is that I can cut down whatevers been making me feel unhealthy. I've been trying to run in the morning for an hour.. well, so far some mornings :)) but at least I'm starting. Also been eating fruits in the morning and starting to cook again. Only thing to fix is my unnatural sleeping habits. I hope to continue this regime so in the words of Olivia Newton John : Lets get physical...physical..!

pics courtesy of : threadcakes

youthful goodness

What a shameless excuse to post the latter :)