2 in 1 haha

Nara de Cocoa

My sister's Anisha's daughter Nara who is the exact replica of her.
How I wov this choco latte!! Nyam.

(peeep)
(suara operator yang rese)

MAAF,
SISA HIDUP ANDA
SELAMA DI BANGKOK
TELAH BERAKHIR......
SILAHKAN TEKAN NOMOR SATU UNTUK MENGULANG WAKTU

*****

NOMOR YANG ANDA TEKAN BERADA DILUAR JANKAUAN REALITA

before I start feeling sorry for myself
remind yourself of her
how long as she been alone
whether she's ever been in love
if she's ever received genuine love from man
whether she struggles to be strong
does she ever cry at night
if she ever desires a family
that she deserves.
before you fall in despair,
remind yourself your pain cannot equal-
first ask yourself why
you haven't even tried
to get to know her better

i guess, the new dawn has arrived

fancy a Sunat laser service??

Huhahaha

I saw a commercial posted on a lamp post in Jkt. I'm surprised at how advanced religious 'event's are nowadays. I'm guessing the service takes on something along star wars laser beam swords and a balloon party :))

Maybe I don't have depth or I'm out of touch with the norm.

I never understood why people change partners out of boredom or why poets need to hide behind layers of metaphors and rhymes to express something so simple

so, you admit it

" So Nurul, are you married?"
"Of course not." I answered offensively.
I looked straight into his eyes in hopes to find out how old he took me for from his vantage point of view. Should I start using wrinkle cream? I was only 21! how can anyone think I'm married? Before I said anything he cut in -
"Boyfriend?"
"No." I said smiling while squinting my eyes. Ah, I see where this is leading.
Then he smiled, and squinted his eyes and said,
"I wouldn't blame ya."

The forest

A young girl who finds peace by retreating into her own world - the forest. Questions about idealism we all have to live by from society are objected by one simple solution.

It takes two

After watching Scent of a Woman, I was instantly blowned away by Al Pacino 's riveting performance. But I was also deeply moved at one particular scene in which his character, took the arm of a beautiful lady he only just met at a restaurant to tango with him. The character he portrayed was an old, lonely, blind, obnoxious, former colonel, who loathed everything in life except the presence of women.

I was inspired by the way he danced and treated her, which made me wanted to learn to dance! hehe. So I found this on youtube. I remember learning Salsa, with my sister and friend, but it wasn't the same to have a woman as a partner. Because you need to be led, and its very different to be with a man who knows how to lead. The pull and dynamics of your movement depends greatly on a comfortable dance partner.

So found this and loved this video. It shows so much passion and elegance. To me the man is obviously leading her every move, she is very sensual and feminine, seeming like she is under his every spell. But at the same time she appears as the star, not the man.

:)

Everybody says, " I look like my mother"
Everybody says, " I look like my father"
everybody says that, "my nose is like my fathers"
Everybody says that, "My lips is like my mothers"
Everybody says that, " i look like an image of somebody"

But, If you really want to know,

I want to look like me
I want to look like me

(a scene of tibetan muslim children learning english)
Prayers Answered
Documentary : Tibetan Photo Project

I really don't like the song, but the video is great! Gives you lots of ideas. Better to watch it on low volume

the gardener

Look at the sky
a canvas for someone I knew
Look at my memory tree
and the roots of chain,
there sleeps a box
that the earth swore
to never be opened again

I've planted other trees
under the sun and many moons
I sung to them to one day grow
rich with fruitful memories

Days I spent there waiting
for the moment it would blossom
But they never live long for me to see
even just a branch, a leaf or just a stem

Look at my soiled hands
they won't tell me what I'm missing
Because everything else in my garden
they dance beautifully with hope

maybe it's written

Maybe I just want to fly
I want to live
I don't want to die
Maybe I just want to breath
Maybe I just don't believe
Maybe you're the same as me
We see things they'll never see
You and I are gonna live forever

oasis

FORTUNATE

Lately these couple of months I've been blessed to have the opportunity for so many things and met so many people!

- went to this dudes film party where my teacher Sugi had worked on. It was hands down the weirdest thing I've ever seen (the film, the party, the LA barbie and ken actors) I did meet some questionable people, but also a COUPLE that are in the industry and was fine enough to chit chat. One was a british film maker guy whom I was introduced to and planned to go to Jakarta, and asked to see my short lol.

- getting to translate on a documentary piece and meet two amazing film makers! They travel the world and work on these documentaries for great causes. My role is minor but how great is it to be a part of this!

- Had to take care of visa again..but frankly my sis and I were still traumatized by our Laos trip, even if it a rather enjoyable in an almost illegitimate way. So we decided to go to Singapore!

I have never been there myself. From before I left and while we were there, an old college friend of mine named Andrew was beyond unbelievably kind to help on anything! looking for hostels, cheap stays, picking us at the airport and accompanying our walks! OMG.. i was so overwhelmed. We met our other friend and her boyfriend, we met Andrews friends there, we dined near the river, sightseeing, museums, boat rides, everything in 3 days! - it was incredible. Shame I didn't get the visa. But I thought then I'll go back to Indonesia, but in the meantime enjoy my time here. And that I did!! Incredibly grateful to andrew! On the plane next to me sat a rather gudlookin dude! He was thai and asked whether I were Singaporean or have friends there since he needed a place to live while studying there! LOL how great it is to meet new people at random places. And the food!! if you calculate it's actually not so far from Bangkok price, but the availabilty of indonesia food there was like an oasis for me! Ayam Penyet! DUH! It was so worth dragging my dead leg all over Bugis district for that! There was Nasi Padang in the food court! Bengawan Solo which is a cake shop the sells kue-kue tradisional Indonesia. even the frozen food at their 7/11 was soo much better and had variety than here! BEUAAAH

- Made a couple of new friends. An Indonesian friend of Dinda's came here for holiday. Thought he was alone, but turns out bought his Greek friend named Stefano's who was very nice and fun. On tues we were all invited to Alex's outback ladies night networking event - which was very very fun. Met other interesting people there as well, talked, free food. Although still stressing about my move to Jakarta, and my job hunt. Right now I'm content, what can I ask for? And only here would I have the chance to meet so many people. But I'm so grateful for everything that has happened to me. Whatever happens I should learn to just enjoy the ride...

the follow

whooosh

What a week!!
I've handed in my work,stopped going to school and so I've decided to recollect my life back with friends, and new ones, and man has it been crazy. Lets talk about the good stuff first and talk serious later. LOL

Watched the Sequel to the Transformers today!!!!!!!! AWESOMENESS TO THE MAX TIMES A THOUSAND!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!



Honestly, I'm so glad a friend booked it for us and took us to watch in limited seats for the movie. I've never watched anything in IMAX, and what a perfect movie to watch it as this transformers movie was deliberately shot with 70mm film (for IMAX), and the first time to be done that way to! I was such in awe with HOW BIG the screen was, added the whole effect of the movie etc etc that I didn't stop making these unsubtle reactions from the beginning to the end LOL... kinda embarrasing since before the movie began my friend Trin and I, both IMAX virgins, (that easily sounded like a tampex commercial gone wrong) in astonishment to the size of the screen, we reacted by making this loud "oooooh,,,,uuuuu!!" sounds which were naturally followed by the turning of at least 5 heads in front of us, and long angry stares. Hahahah.

Story wise..we all know that isn't important..hahaha
I knew how the story would end, but its still great that I could still react to every turning point in excitement - I didn't stopped going WHOO!

Another movie I'm dying to watch














Where the Wild things Are by Spike Jonze.
Been following him since he made Adaptation. another late discovery, but oh well) Truly one of the brilliant modern directors and writers out there. To bad him and Sophia Coppola divorced, as they are both my heroes. Otherwise they would've made a hell of masterpiece together say they joined their genius brains together. Or romantically, as a couple, that would be the ideal, to have a partner with the same vision. I think so.

Anyway, I love these type of movies, and I've noticed the type of movies I respond to have a great theme to them, Yes,love - but also ones with great imagination that manages to tickle my inner child. I guess I've always had a peter pan syndrome. There's something reminiscent and bittersweet about being a kid and living in your own made up world.

"An adaptation of Maurice Sendak's classic children's story, where Max, a disobedient little boy sent to bed without his supper, creates his own world--a forest inhabited by ferocious wild creatures that crown Max as their ruler". - imdb ( can't write a synopsis since i haven't watched it! ;p)

presidential election coming our way

I know I'm a total hypocrite for desperately avoiding living in my own country these many years, but let me tell you why I would still vote.

1.) Whatever change that will happen, theres only one movement that is going to favor this change which is moving progressively. Our country has been in the slums and can go far worse that what we are encountering right now. But economically we've upscaled, (although still not enough to even pay off our debt :S), and indonesia compared to other neighbouring asean countries won't be greatly affected by the reccession, and i've noticed that there are more foreigners residing in Jakarta, (though not as much as I would remember in the 90s during Suharto's reign) but this is a positive thing, meaning= investors, and investors believing in our potential.

2.) My father never pushed me to vote, but he is one of the great reasons i am rather nationalistic. Hihi.

3.) Pluralism. My family is very conservative which would mean they would chose an islamic party. I've noticed a great deal of people I've talked to during the legislative election, chose an islamic party. This is the beauty of democracy. I disagree of having the sharia h laws of islam laid down as the sole foundation of our countries laws - despite the fact that I am a muslim- because our country is NOT consisted of Muslims ONLY. There are 5 main religions that are legal in indonesia which means there should be a fair leadership that would consider the benefit and justice of ALL beliefs. Hence, I did not choose an Islamic party.

4.) The right to vote, better yet, the chance to vote.
There were 44 legislatives that could easily have scumbag written on there photos. But compare our chances with what women in saudi arabia, lebanon or our neighbouring country brunei for instance. Women do not get to vote. And yet I have this chance in my hand, as a woman, I don't think I want to throw away that easily. Compared to choosing none at all, I would still pick the lesser of 44 evils.

5.) Democracy again.
As a filmmaker wannabe, MUI's ridiculous anti-pornography bill is plain stupid. This is a typical tactic to control the society, not liberating them. Try NOT producing them at all huh?? Or why don't you try to make a system where you can brainwash the minds of ALL men??

6.) I still have hope. And I want to live in an Indonesia that I CAN LIVE IN..!!